Oh Baby, Please Don't Go!

My friend Amadon wants to leave.  While I am learning to let things be what they are, I am also learning to let my not-okay-letting-things-be-what-they-are-yet be what it is.  Clear as mud?  Great.  Mine is a weird path. 

I have constructed an entire blog-post-in-response-to-his-blog-post in his honor.  Complete with quotes.  Behold:

"Arguably, the people presently at Zaadz are, for the most part, a bit deeper in their thinking than the public at large. But the people at Zaadz are not so different in their tendency to make many relatively superficial social contacts, and their tendency to choose breadth over depth in learning. Consequently, the skills that allow for social functionality are, in general, insufficiently developed. And those are basic spiritual skills, developmental skills."

I couldn't agree more!

"Another problem related to the flood of available information and trainings is a flood of misleading titles and credentials. I was surprised, at first, to find a young man who claimed to be a “Master Avatar.” Then I discovered, of course: he took a training that bestowed that title on him."

LOL  Again, so true!

"It’s tragic, folks! Titles which once meant something now mean virtually nothing. The problem is, we’re losing the functions the titles used to indicate."

Yup.  Baudrillard strikes again!  Oh, you're tickling my favorite pet peeve bones!  This is just too easy to get excited about, but its pulling me towards a more contracted place.  My dear, I could quote you for days.

"The drill is: exaggerate what it can do, make out like it’s very superior, delude people into a kind of a new superstition and dogma about that, and thereby popularize your technique and make money. The more outrageous claims you can make for your technique, the more money, potentially, you can earn in a competitive marketplace. That makes the whole spirituality bazaar completely bizarre. Claims are routinely distorted and almost cartoon-like because competition requires it. "

etc, etc, etc.  Just the other day someone displayed their "attachment-avoiding unlove" to me here.  Someone who will coach you for a fee over the phone or email, someone with years of experience teaching, someone with a degree, and someone who supposedly believes it's "all about love" - displayed blatant ignorance and shallowness towards me after I got overly excited by one of my favorite subjects and shared more about my life than was "normal".  Some healer!  But maybe this person would have responded differently if I had given them my credit card number!

Wow. 

In my work with the Mentally ill, I've figured out that people who come to this work often inwardly hate the very symptoms that their clients usually have.  It's a Shadow thing.  I was just talking with someone the other day about the same phenomenon in other fields - doctors and nurses who can't stand sick people, teachers who hate kids, Lawyers who hate victims, social workers who hate poverty and homelessness, Christians who hate sin, Buddhists who hate suffering, etc.  It goes on and on.  They are drawn by some hidden desire to eradicate the thing they hate by using the technology available in that field, but meanwhile their hidden hatred (eventually, hidden only to themselves) undoes any good that they have achieved through the use of that technology.  It's weird, but common.  Much of the energy that cranks out this non-love, non-sanity is, as you say, fear.

"So I say, it’s not only what you’re avoiding that you should fear. It’s what you’re actually embracing, what you’re doing instead of the things you’re avoiding, that you should fear. "

I totally applaud your intention to bring more consciousness to this HUGE problem, however I believe you've come up against Shadow at this point, and Shadow has an even more powerful intention towards Anti-consciousness.  Endless explanations and pleadings and reasoning will not prevail against it.  The Darkness, truly, has a mind of it's own.


"Basically, people fear A, and they are way too skeptical to believe that C — A’s (healthy) opposite — could really exist. They tend to think, skeptically, that if anything appears to be A’s opposite, it is really A in disguise. So they get stuck in B, a reactive alternative to A."

This is important!  This is the same thing as what happens between developmental and value meme levels.  Yes!  Yes!  Yes! 

I weigh about 135 pounds, give or take some water-weight during my cycle.  But to someone who is developmentally ahead of me, I am as emotionally heavy as the rock that God made too heavy for Him to lift.    I just cannot be dragged or lifted up.  No way, no how. 

I see it when I try and lift someone else who is below me.  Any Parent understands instinctively what this is about.  It's all well and good to give the young child special indulgence, but more is expected of the older child.  And when they can finally give it, they get special privaleges.  Eventually, if your child does not progress to a developmental level even with or above you, then you begin to think something is wrong. 

Adults who talk as if they understand advanced ideas often fool themselves and one another into believing that they are, in fact, advanced.  But their relational behavior - or their actions in the We-space - give them away.  It becomes obvious to those developmentally above them - or even just on the flip side of their Shadow perspective - that they are still operating at a sub- or pre-conscious level when their actions cancel out the effect of their stated values.  Their hypocrisy may be passed off as not "understanding" the ideas well enough, but that is not what is going on.   

"What about a beautiful marriage between two people who are devoted (yet, not off-center)! What about a beautiful relationship between a teacher who is actually wise, and truly loves the student, and a student who truly loves the teacher (with a healthy love)?  Do either of those possibilities exist in your mind? No? How sad. "

Indeed. 

Those kinds of relationships generate a larger, more expanded field of potential for both individuals.  Together they can become more than the average of their parts.  Unfortunately, most people have not figured out how to relate to others in a healthy way yet.  Of course, the root of that problem is that they don't yet have healthy relationships with themselves, but that goes back to the issue of consciousness and distinguishing the difference between the idea of consciousness and the thing itself. 

My personal soap-box is that Higher Consciousness is not enough.  Lower Consciousness is also very important.  But convincing people here of that is pretty hard.  The New Age specifically campaigns against it.

The field of potential in relationship totally depends on Lower Consciousness: the deep triggers and NLP type things that are part of our makeup.  The solution to the problem of getting pulled off center and exploitation and such is not to avoid the triggers and patterns, but to bring Higher Consciousness down to it's level and invest ourselves in engaging those energies with benevolence and love.  This will both create acute vulnerability and solve the problems associated with it at the same time.  I just don't think there is any other way.  As you say, all other roads seem to lead to death.


"You know, hate to tell ya the truth but … every person who has ever learned anything in depth learned it from a true master. "

If by this you mean, someone other than yourself, then I'm afraid I'm gonna have to disagree.  I've learned important things from people who had no skill, much less intention, to teach what I learned from them.  That's because the Master is really me.  And by that, I don't mean my small egoic self.  I mean a part of me that really is a Master but I haven't yet fully integrated. 

I believe that the reason Teaching and Deep Loving works is because there is Shadow Hugging going on.  I trust a Teacher or fall in love because I see something wonderful in that person that I want for my own character.  But I wouldn't even recognize it if I didn't have it in some capacity somewhere - even hidden from myself.  Embracing the quality in the Other becomes an opportunity to recover and heal that quality within the self because, from what I've heard, there really is no "other".  Only mirrors.

But using the mirror of the "other" is important to begin the process for many.  There's no mistaking it.  And for most of human history, this has been the only way to begin.  I think that might be changing, but I'm not sure.  For some, that way will still be best.  I don't think anyone can make that call for someone else.  If a "Student" cannot learn from a "Teacher" who is an "other", then there's no use trying to force it.  Let them invent the wheel again.  There is value in understanding the entire process of discovery for the self, and not having the final product handed to you on a silver platter.

"It’s one thing to ignore a friend’s advice, but people also refuse to learn from, or even acknowledge, true elders and competent teachers, because they consider that would be a challenge to their sovereignty, an “invalidation” of their Divinity. That’s pretty nearly the deepest and most truly diabolical horseshit being produced on the planet at the present time. It rules out appropriate humility and appropriate respect all at once."

I think I understand your concern.  Refusing Truth from above is a risky business.  It can end up with alot of tossed babies with bathwater.  But this is by no means anything new.  The scientific revolution did the same thing.  There were plenty of disasters along with the improvements.  People who teach and who do it with integrity have valid complaints.  Nevertheless, time marches on and changes are inevitable.  If we look behind us and ask what could have been done better for the other "enlightenment", what kind of answers would we come up with?  Can those be applied here?

"Everywhere in modern society, we see individuals who really are very poor learners — people with enormous pride, and insane fear of acknowledging any sort of authority. And while there can be spiritually good aspects to this, it tends to produce generations of people who really know amazingly little after an amazingly long time."

This is very true.  As you hinted; after so many hundreds of years of exploiting one limited natural resouce after another to the point of economic and public health disasters on an international scale, why are auto-makers still wasting time designing and selling us new cars that use gasoline?  WTF? 

I love this:

"What is the right use of the truth of our Divinity? Accept personal power, but allow everyone to have their power — including people who are, in fact, particularly powerful, knowledgeable (and from whom we would be wise, therefore, to learn). "

Flat out, yeah!  And this:

"Then mutual consideration is impossible; deep conversation is impossible; meeting of minds and hearts is impossible. Debate becomes the way — and the debate isn’t on a level that makes its results particularly valuable."

LOL  I don't know how you feel about explatives, but flat out, FUCK YEAH!

"What is the right use of communication? Be more honest. Don’t just say what you think; pay attention how the exchange feels. And if, in all honestly, it doesn’t feel good, adjust. Listen more. Care more. Address what the other person says — and, more importantly, feels. "

Beautiful! 

"Now you see, friends, why I say, “fear well.” A lot depends on correcting our misplaced fears."

Indeed.  Fear is a deep trigger that generates all sorts of neurochemical transactions which strengthen us as well as weaken us.  I wrote about this before.  Your very next sentence is an example of what I mean:

"How bad do these problems have to get before people decide it’s time to rebel, to turn around, and to change things? Normally, things have to get very bad for most people to seriously object or to do anything about it. Only when a problem comes to a head do people finally wake up."

The thing that makes it hard for them to wake up is the exact same thing which is causing you to sound the alarm.  It's the same process.  Today's alarm becomes tomorrow's anti-consciousness.  After today's solution has been sucked dry of everything it has to offer, it then becomes tomorrow's problem, in need of a new solution.  That is the way of things.  The more tension we create around today's solution, the more our children and grandchildren will have to fight to bring about the next solution.  So, I would offer a question about what we unconsciously create when we create strong intention. 

"Once something is committed to being, a space and time where it is not, also emerges.  You cannot create something without also creating the non-existence of it."  Before you create the next thing, ask yourself what else you are creating alongside.

It is true that zaadz contains all that many of us think will solve the big problems now.  And consequently, it is also true that it contains tomorrow's problems.  Few see that.  It won't hurt anything to keep our eyes open to that.  And we still have to plot forward on the road we're on.  Divine frustration abounds!  And so:

"...more and more people will be inclined to rebel against the madness of it, and to take a path that is much truer to the real values of spirituality: ego transcendence; true love of real God; and true discernment."

Yay and amen!  Eros will continue to stretch the growing tip and invite the transcendence of our current limits.  Your frustration, my friend, is truly shared.  Make no mistake about it.  Clearly, there are many who care about the lame debates and arguments over terms and angels on pin-heads. 

But, if they all leave out of frustration, who will lead the way?  What else are you creating alongside of your place "where the living reflects your intuition of life well lived."  Please be mindful of that.  That is all I ask. 

Rest and be well, my visionary, wonderful friend.  I will miss you.

~Ww