I don't know if I'm intuiting something important or not, but I think I am. 

It seems to me now that everything that exists can be seen as a Contraction which creates Shadow.  Everything.  To exist means to be located in a place and time which means there is also a place and time where you do not exist.  Only that which is beyond existing and not existing can do both.  So, I guess I have to agree with the Atheists who say that God does not exist.  If we understand existence as a small sub-section of that which transcends existence, then I gotta hand it to 'em: God would, logically, include existing and not existing.  But I doubt that's what they're talking about.  When humans speak of God, we're mainly concerning ourselves with the part Who does Exist. 

Hence, my point. 

Once something is committed to being, a space and time where it is not, also emerges.  You cannot create something without also creating the non-existence of it.  Before a thing existed, it's non-existence didn't exist yet either.  Call it condensation or contraction or whatever.  First, there is a field of potential, then a thing emerges simultaneously alongside of it's opposite or non-thing. 

As humans, we have great power to create.  But we create without awareness of this Shadow creation.  I want my personal space to be beautiful, therefore I decorate and arrange my things artfully around me.  We do not usually acknowledge what happens when we do this - that we therefore also create space where, what we think of as beautiful, does not exist.  Without realizing what we've done, we've powerfully created a space of ugliness - which is prolly fairly large since we can't decorate the whole world. 

Another example: I want to generate kindness.  Therefore I adopt a manner of behavior and attitude which includes as much of what the majority of humans consider kind as I can.  This seems simple enough and a wonderful goal.  But without knowing it I've also generated the opposite of this kindness.  My desire has begun a process which chooses one thing over another, leaving behind the other, creating a pile of rejected others.  Others like being indiferent to the needs or sufferings of other people or causing pain to other people. 

I am only aware of the thing I have intended: kindness.  By rejecting the impulse to be indiferent or cruel within myself, I have also rejected that impulse in other people.  Those other people do not necessarily feel inspired by my rejection.  They may just feel rejected.  And that which exists but is rejected, will assert itself.  What you resist, shall persist.  And we're as sick as our secrets.  Those rejected other people will gather around the pile of rejected behaviors and attitudes and protect and assert it with or without our permission.  We have unwittingly created and strengthened our "enemy". 

Everything that exists has this Shadow.  Everything. 

God.  Me and you.  The earth.  The Universe.  An atom.  A beautiful painting.  A thought.  A drop of rain.

It seems to me that the Eastern Spiritual Traditions have recognised this and have tried to help us turn this thing around and disempower the suffering which comes as a result of the lack of existence of those things which we have intended.  Sort of, run the tape backwards and dissolve everything so that all we have left is that field of potential and there's no existence and no Shadow and no one gets hurt. 

Isn't that regressive?

I've been watching (as closely as I have time for) Andrew Cohen's Spiritual Community and reading his convos with Ken Wilber.  This morning I was perusing the Zaadzsters page and found a profile who looked inneresting to me so I followed it.  It lead me to a website for a Teacher named simply, Thomas.  Who knew that the Germans could achieve enlightenment?!  As I listened to a video of Thomas talking about  some of the problems inherent with Spiritual Communities, I started to see the problem very clearly.  Some individuals seem to be able to achieve the essence of enlightenment fairly well (others lose it when they must interact with the normal world), but communities get stuck in the idea of enlightenment.  How do we get communities to achieve the essense?  A teacher with a very Powerful Presence can sometimes generate enough Transmission to keep all the members of a Community in a sort of gelatinous state of enlightenment.  In order to function within that Community, an individual must reject a certain amount of their autonomy so they don't sow discord into the We-Space.  It's a fragile bond that breaks easily. 

What if that too is regressive?

What if there is another way?  A way forward.  A way that doesn't run into a glass ceiling and stay stuck in the idea of enlightenment.  A way that includes all that has come before us and achieves what is ahead of us - rejecting nothing.  A way that includes our autonomy, our desire, and everything that we have unintentionally generated as Shadow by creating what we wanted?   What emerges when we run the tape forward instead of backward?  Something besides entropy?  Is there another possibility?

There are alot of folks who are certain that I am asking the wrong questions.  That I don't really understand things correctly, and therefore am confused.  But I don't think that is right. 

Out of the field of possibility has emerged what Is - both what was intended as well as it's Shadow.  The mechanism of creation is, always has been and always will be - Contraction.  Reversing the mechanism of Contraction returns our awareness to that field of possibility - the only place with no Shadow.  But on the way to losing Shadow, we've also lost Existence.  Ramana saw this.  It was a price he was willing to pay.  Nietzsche saw it, but was not willing. 

Is that really the price we have to pay?  And when existence asserts itself and gets all up in our face and disrupts our serenity, is that a price we really can pay? 

I think there must be another way.

~Ww

Yesterday was one of the most amazing days I can remember in a long time.  I watched the most extreme cases of human blindness happen all around me and at me.  I just watched.  And I tried not to contract down and satisfy myself with "ain't it aweful" kinds of thinking.  Not because it wasn't aweful, or that the victims didn't deserve an advocate, but because by doing so, I would be energizing the opposition instead of resolving any conflict.  (see previous entry)

I didn't merely hold in my anger.  I watched it.  It swelled within me.  I contained the same urge to punish according to how I saw it.  There's no doubt about it.  I am them.

No.  There has to be another way. 

I'm seeing some good help from The Center for Nonviolent Communication.  They have the Lower Right quadrant thing pretty much covered here.  Really good help for the We-Space.  And, it can inspire some transformation in the Lower Left, but it can't necessarily create or cause it.  The best our technology can do in these situations is inspire.  But like I said the other day, inspiration sometimes has a Shadow side of rejection which the subject is not necessarily conscious or aware of.  Our Awareness is key.  We can only see beyond choices that we understand.  If we understand them, then the consequences will be manageable. 

Today, I go to Court to lay down a restraining order on my boyfriend.  The Legal system really wants me to paint him as this Bad, Evil person.  I know better than to think that will solve anything.  So, I'm asking that the Court merely honor my requests to restrain him because I don't want his behavior in my face right now; it's making it too difficult for me to do the things I need to do to get well.  I don't hate him.  I love him.  But I need a safe, secure and supportive environment in which to do the vulnerable work of my own transformation.  He cannot control himself and I can't afford to spend all my time and energy trying to control him either.  I have urgent matters to take care of.  So, I'm working on my wording and trying to give the Court the quantifyable elements they need to do their part.  It's inneresting.  I have to negotiate with the Judge not to hurt him or humiliate him.  I just need him off me. 

Both my Punisher and my Savior/Rescuer/Worthy Self are working together in this excercize.  They are not fighting or competing.  They both understand that the only way to win is for everyone to win.  If anyone is sacrificed, then we all lose. 

My Mother is trying to oppose me.  She is working unconsciously out of terrible fear and anger, but she cannot wake up.  Not yet, anyway.  Maybe some other time.  But I need to not get caught up in her vortex either.  She still has some traction in me.  Traction that is not for my good or cannot help me. 

But what I really need to acknowledge is that I am doing this because I still lack something.  It's coming from a place of need and lack.  I somehow do not have what I need when he starts to go into Self-destruct mode and starts drawing me in.  I cannot keep myself from going down.  My own impulse to Self-destruct is still somewhat strong and I regress back there from time to time when I am deeply triggered.  I do not yet have freedom from that compusion, so when he is doing it in my face, mine is energized and I cannot save myself.  Not yet. 

In time, I hope to gain more freedom so that I can sow less turmoil into conflict and get to resolution quicker.  I have to do this without rejecting my Inner Fighter or Punisher.  Otherwise I will be creating more Shadow from which more shit will fly. 

I'm doing the right thing.  But it is like trying to remove someone's infected apendix with a shovel.  It would be great if we had better tools to do this with than shovels, but we really don't.  Not yet.  So, I want to be really careful.  Shovels don't cure apendicitis, people do.  I'm hoping that the Judge will see it my way, but if he insists that there must be a crime and there has to be a criminal, then I may have to call it off.  That just won't solve anything. 

There needs to be another way.

~Ww

I've had some wonderful conversations over the past several days.  Really terrific.  Thank you, all.

It seems to be a constant process of bumping into people and seeing if we can have an awareness of our bumping.  Have you seen the movie, "CRASH" ?  Wow!  Can you contain it all?  All that pain?  All that hope?  All that desperation?  All that futility?  Can you really be present to it all and not recoil?  I'm warning you; it's excruciating.

The more I listen to people talk about our collective situation, the more I see how our stories are all the collective interior (LL) representation of something that goes on in our brains.  Don't worry, I know that works both ways.  I know that our collective brain chemicals (LR) are representations of what is going on in our collective experiences together in time.   Both cause the other.  There is no answer to the chicken and the egg.  My good friend today, answered someone's attempt to pidgeonhole her with a really good response.  Someone asked her, "Are you a hippie chick?"  And she said, "No, I'm a hippie chicken!"  I love her. 

Our brain chemicals, at this time, are used to supporting the learning patterns that we've been doing for millenia, but we're asking them to support another kind of learning now, and they're having a hard time.  Can anyone just give the human brain a little forgiveness here?  Can we stop with the polemic and Violent Communication towards our "ego's" and all that other crap?  Puleeeze! 

I know.  I'm just reinforcing the problem by saying it that way.  There is a chemical representation of frustration with the slowness of others.  Whatever it is, I'm having it right now. 

Derailing that and asking my brain to reinforce something totally new is asking alot.  For a few hours now I've been listening to the sound-loop to the CRASH website play over and over.  It's an OM.  There are no human voices, but that's what it is.  No doubt about it.  It contains all the sorrow and all the release.  It's good for me right now.  My brain chemicals are responding to it and imprinting.  They are associating meaning to this sound that will help me go forward.  However, eventually, those associations will become part of the problem, and the event of frustration will occur all over again. 

Last night I was strangely sensitive to music too.  As I drove through town, "I Put a Spell On You" by Creedence Clearwater Revival came on.  If you don't "get" that song, and that band and what is going on there, then forget this part.  But that is just straight audio-voodoo.  It is triggering all the right things that arouse the most primal jealousy and posessiveness.  It is profound.  Then again later "Too Rolling Stoned" by Robin Trower came on.  More amazingness.  Don't worry if you haven't made the same associations as I have.  But I had to just stop the car for a bit and listen even tho I had already arived at my destination.  I also drove really slow so I wouldn't get home too soon.  I opened the windows of the car and cruised down State Street real slow.  Listening.  Looking for cops in my rear view.  Transfixed.  To all outward appearances I was stoned. 

I'm so glad that I'm an animal.  The triggers in my nervous system are so powerful and there is so much pleasure there.  It amazes me how powerful we are. 

And equally weakened. 

Please take a moment today to sit in awe of your mobile consciousness unit. 

Then take the next moment to contemplate with humility how equally powerful and weak we all are.  How compelled.  How caught.  How frustrated. 

"We must forgive each other our arising, for our existance always torments others.  The Golden Rule in the midst of this mutual misery has always been, not to do no harm, but as little as possible; and not to love one another, but as much as you can."
~KW

~Ww

Yesterday I went to my first Sangha.  And learned how to actually pronounce the word.  LOL  I've read it hundreds of times!  There's a little local group here.  I'll have to ask first before I add it to the zaadz list, they may prefer to remain private.  But they were very kind with me and another newcomer. 

I'm starting to see how the work with Higher Consciousness works together with Lower Consciousness.  I'm so grateful that I did my lower work first!!  I think I've relieved so much suffering already so that going Higher can now be free to work for a different agenda.  I really don't like the idea of going Higher in order to avoid suffering.  It really bothers me.  So many people remain unconscious of the dualistic agenda of that.  Even this month's Shambhala Sun magazine is putting it in those terms. 

"In Myths from around the world, men and women have searched for an elixir that will bring protection from suffering.  Buddhism's answer is mindfulness."

The opening pages of the article are supporting the agenda of the avoidance of pain/suffering - as if those were the same.  I get that the Axial age brought about great leaps in consciousness, but it used the developmental levels of the day to translate it.  And we're still using that. 

I am aware of being attached to feeling pain.  From what I understand, Higher Consciousness doesn't relieve one's pain.  It brings more expanded Consciousness to the pain, so that we're actually more present with the pain and avoiding it less!  But people don't typically talk about it that way.  People may rhapsodize about being more present with beauty or goodness, but pain?  Um...     no.  Anger?    Uh......      no.  Fear?     [shuffle, shuffle]  Trying to get a Buddhist to hold space for fear is like trying to get a Fundie-Christian to stop judging people. 

So, until I find some We-space that will be present with me, with my pain, I'll hold my own space, thankyouverymuch.  My pain has taught me so much.  Kept me sane.  Kept me on the Higher path.  Kept me close to Beauty, Truth and Goodness.  Kept me connected to others.  Kept me free from conformity.  Kept my Eros pointed in the right direction so that I would end up here:

Ready to expand past it's boundaries.   I don't think a person is really ready if they haven't made peace with their pain yet.  What they resist, will persist.  It will be an anchor for the soul, keeping them tied to the very thing they are trying to avoid.  I'm losing all such trying.  My chains are very loose now...

I embrace the previously Shadowed precociousness it takes to say such things.  There is no reason to push that away.  My Eros is still pointing upwards, stretching the growing tip.  The tip of that which will be expanded beyond...  towards...  All.  Fullness. 

I'm almost ready to say, "emptiness".  LOL  But not quite.  That word is loaded with associations of avoidance and attachment.  As a woman, that does no appeal to me.  I want to embrace and contain all that the Universe has to offer.  Conquer it all with love.  The article in Shambhala Sun contains a quote from George Washington Carver. 

"Anything will give up its secrets if you love it enough."

I am in love with the revealing of such secrets.  The secret of Evil is that it is not the Baddass it wishes it was.  To me, that is a much more worthwhile "Secret" to know than the popular one right now.  It really is weak and frail and totally vulnerable to undoing. 

"I want what you want, Mr. Anderson.  I want everything!"

Blessings and bliss to all.

~Ww

But its prolly not you.  It may just be me.

I'm hearing that my life is exhausting.  I'm hearing that I sound crazy.  I'm hearing that I'm scary.  I'm hearing that I'm worth ignoring. 

That's very inneresting.  Someone inside of me experiences me that way, and I had long since stopped listening to them.  I'm sorry for that. 

Because since I stopped listening, they haven't had the benefit of my help in understanding.  They haven't had the opportunity to mature enough to hold space for such chaos and wildness.  They have stayed stuck in ignorance and - unfortunately - arrogance.  Yes, me.  That person is me.  There is really exhausting, crazy, scary stuff going on around me and in me that I arrogantly dismiss and ignore because at some point in my life I couldn't contain it - so I locked the person who sees it in the basement.  They operate down there without my supervision or consent.  They come out when my head is turned and act out.  They hurt people.  They're prolly just a scared child.  But they don't think they are.  They are wearing a Grown Up disguise and they've looked in the mirror and fooled themself. 

But so have my Primary Selves who don't have the burden of arrogance or fear to bear.  They have fooled themselves as well - the Benevolent and Non-Judgmental ones, the humble and fearless ones, the honest and spiritual ones.  They have been thinking that they own my character and that ability to see things as they are for a long time.  They've believed that they've been occasionally touched by some "spirit" from "the great beyond" when they are able to see clearly.  But really, it's just the Shadowed parts of myself that God gave to me to begin with - and I rejected - that are seeing things. 

What would happen if I invited that rejected Person back to the table to help with my life? 

Too scary.  Way too scary!  Big Black Hole there.  Lots of Anti-consciousness.  Something very bad happened there. 

So other people have had to take up that Voice to replace what I tried to purge from myself.  That's a heavy burden: arrogance and fear.  I'm sorry.  It'd be great if you were in a place where you could hear what is being said to you too.

It may take some time for me to get that Program back on line.  I know that God holds that space of Grace open for me to do what I have to do around this, but I don't know if others will.  ...I don't know if I will...  Lots of trial and error.  But I have to try.  It has been a deeply hated thing. 

Lord have Mercy on me.  And you too.

~Ww

My friend Amadon wants to leave.  While I am learning to let things be what they are, I am also learning to let my not-okay-letting-things-be-what-they-are-yet be what it is.  Clear as mud?  Great.  Mine is a weird path. 

I have constructed an entire blog-post-in-response-to-his-blog-post in his honor.  Complete with quotes.  Behold:

"Arguably, the people presently at Zaadz are, for the most part, a bit deeper in their thinking than the public at large. But the people at Zaadz are not so different in their tendency to make many relatively superficial social contacts, and their tendency to choose breadth over depth in learning. Consequently, the skills that allow for social functionality are, in general, insufficiently developed. And those are basic spiritual skills, developmental skills."

I couldn't agree more!

"Another problem related to the flood of available information and trainings is a flood of misleading titles and credentials. I was surprised, at first, to find a young man who claimed to be a “Master Avatar.” Then I discovered, of course: he took a training that bestowed that title on him."

LOL  Again, so true!

"It’s tragic, folks! Titles which once meant something now mean virtually nothing. The problem is, we’re losing the functions the titles used to indicate."

Yup.  Baudrillard strikes again!  Oh, you're tickling my favorite pet peeve bones!  This is just too easy to get excited about, but its pulling me towards a more contracted place.  My dear, I could quote you for days.

"The drill is: exaggerate what it can do, make out like it’s very superior, delude people into a kind of a new superstition and dogma about that, and thereby popularize your technique and make money. The more outrageous claims you can make for your technique, the more money, potentially, you can earn in a competitive marketplace. That makes the whole spirituality bazaar completely bizarre. Claims are routinely distorted and almost cartoon-like because competition requires it. "

etc, etc, etc.  Just the other day someone displayed their "attachment-avoiding unlove" to me here.  Someone who will coach you for a fee over the phone or email, someone with years of experience teaching, someone with a degree, and someone who supposedly believes it's "all about love" - displayed blatant ignorance and shallowness towards me after I got overly excited by one of my favorite subjects and shared more about my life than was "normal".  Some healer!  But maybe this person would have responded differently if I had given them my credit card number!

Wow. 

In my work with the Mentally ill, I've figured out that people who come to this work often inwardly hate the very symptoms that their clients usually have.  It's a Shadow thing.  I was just talking with someone the other day about the same phenomenon in other fields - doctors and nurses who can't stand sick people, teachers who hate kids, Lawyers who hate victims, social workers who hate poverty and homelessness, Christians who hate sin, Buddhists who hate suffering, etc.  It goes on and on.  They are drawn by some hidden desire to eradicate the thing they hate by using the technology available in that field, but meanwhile their hidden hatred (eventually, hidden only to themselves) undoes any good that they have achieved through the use of that technology.  It's weird, but common.  Much of the energy that cranks out this non-love, non-sanity is, as you say, fear.

"So I say, it’s not only what you’re avoiding that you should fear. It’s what you’re actually embracing, what you’re doing instead of the things you’re avoiding, that you should fear. "

I totally applaud your intention to bring more consciousness to this HUGE problem, however I believe you've come up against Shadow at this point, and Shadow has an even more powerful intention towards Anti-consciousness.  Endless explanations and pleadings and reasoning will not prevail against it.  The Darkness, truly, has a mind of it's own.


"Basically, people fear A, and they are way too skeptical to believe that C — A’s (healthy) opposite — could really exist. They tend to think, skeptically, that if anything appears to be A’s opposite, it is really A in disguise. So they get stuck in B, a reactive alternative to A."

This is important!  This is the same thing as what happens between developmental and value meme levels.  Yes!  Yes!  Yes! 

I weigh about 135 pounds, give or take some water-weight during my cycle.  But to someone who is developmentally ahead of me, I am as emotionally heavy as the rock that God made too heavy for Him to lift.    I just cannot be dragged or lifted up.  No way, no how. 

I see it when I try and lift someone else who is below me.  Any Parent understands instinctively what this is about.  It's all well and good to give the young child special indulgence, but more is expected of the older child.  And when they can finally give it, they get special privaleges.  Eventually, if your child does not progress to a developmental level even with or above you, then you begin to think something is wrong. 

Adults who talk as if they understand advanced ideas often fool themselves and one another into believing that they are, in fact, advanced.  But their relational behavior - or their actions in the We-space - give them away.  It becomes obvious to those developmentally above them - or even just on the flip side of their Shadow perspective - that they are still operating at a sub- or pre-conscious level when their actions cancel out the effect of their stated values.  Their hypocrisy may be passed off as not "understanding" the ideas well enough, but that is not what is going on.   

"What about a beautiful marriage between two people who are devoted (yet, not off-center)! What about a beautiful relationship between a teacher who is actually wise, and truly loves the student, and a student who truly loves the teacher (with a healthy love)?  Do either of those possibilities exist in your mind? No? How sad. "

Indeed. 

Those kinds of relationships generate a larger, more expanded field of potential for both individuals.  Together they can become more than the average of their parts.  Unfortunately, most people have not figured out how to relate to others in a healthy way yet.  Of course, the root of that problem is that they don't yet have healthy relationships with themselves, but that goes back to the issue of consciousness and distinguishing the difference between the idea of consciousness and the thing itself. 

My personal soap-box is that Higher Consciousness is not enough.  Lower Consciousness is also very important.  But convincing people here of that is pretty hard.  The New Age specifically campaigns against it.

The field of potential in relationship totally depends on Lower Consciousness: the deep triggers and NLP type things that are part of our makeup.  The solution to the problem of getting pulled off center and exploitation and such is not to avoid the triggers and patterns, but to bring Higher Consciousness down to it's level and invest ourselves in engaging those energies with benevolence and love.  This will both create acute vulnerability and solve the problems associated with it at the same time.  I just don't think there is any other way.  As you say, all other roads seem to lead to death.


"You know, hate to tell ya the truth but … every person who has ever learned anything in depth learned it from a true master. "

If by this you mean, someone other than yourself, then I'm afraid I'm gonna have to disagree.  I've learned important things from people who had no skill, much less intention, to teach what I learned from them.  That's because the Master is really me.  And by that, I don't mean my small egoic self.  I mean a part of me that really is a Master but I haven't yet fully integrated. 

I believe that the reason Teaching and Deep Loving works is because there is Shadow Hugging going on.  I trust a Teacher or fall in love because I see something wonderful in that person that I want for my own character.  But I wouldn't even recognize it if I didn't have it in some capacity somewhere - even hidden from myself.  Embracing the quality in the Other becomes an opportunity to recover and heal that quality within the self because, from what I've heard, there really is no "other".  Only mirrors.

But using the mirror of the "other" is important to begin the process for many.  There's no mistaking it.  And for most of human history, this has been the only way to begin.  I think that might be changing, but I'm not sure.  For some, that way will still be best.  I don't think anyone can make that call for someone else.  If a "Student" cannot learn from a "Teacher" who is an "other", then there's no use trying to force it.  Let them invent the wheel again.  There is value in understanding the entire process of discovery for the self, and not having the final product handed to you on a silver platter.

"It’s one thing to ignore a friend’s advice, but people also refuse to learn from, or even acknowledge, true elders and competent teachers, because they consider that would be a challenge to their sovereignty, an “invalidation” of their Divinity. That’s pretty nearly the deepest and most truly diabolical horseshit being produced on the planet at the present time. It rules out appropriate humility and appropriate respect all at once."

I think I understand your concern.  Refusing Truth from above is a risky business.  It can end up with alot of tossed babies with bathwater.  But this is by no means anything new.  The scientific revolution did the same thing.  There were plenty of disasters along with the improvements.  People who teach and who do it with integrity have valid complaints.  Nevertheless, time marches on and changes are inevitable.  If we look behind us and ask what could have been done better for the other "enlightenment", what kind of answers would we come up with?  Can those be applied here?

"Everywhere in modern society, we see individuals who really are very poor learners — people with enormous pride, and insane fear of acknowledging any sort of authority. And while there can be spiritually good aspects to this, it tends to produce generations of people who really know amazingly little after an amazingly long time."

This is very true.  As you hinted; after so many hundreds of years of exploiting one limited natural resouce after another to the point of economic and public health disasters on an international scale, why are auto-makers still wasting time designing and selling us new cars that use gasoline?  WTF? 

I love this:

"What is the right use of the truth of our Divinity? Accept personal power, but allow everyone to have their power — including people who are, in fact, particularly powerful, knowledgeable (and from whom we would be wise, therefore, to learn). "

Flat out, yeah!  And this:

"Then mutual consideration is impossible; deep conversation is impossible; meeting of minds and hearts is impossible. Debate becomes the way — and the debate isn’t on a level that makes its results particularly valuable."

LOL  I don't know how you feel about explatives, but flat out, FUCK YEAH!

"What is the right use of communication? Be more honest. Don’t just say what you think; pay attention how the exchange feels. And if, in all honestly, it doesn’t feel good, adjust. Listen more. Care more. Address what the other person says — and, more importantly, feels. "

Beautiful! 

"Now you see, friends, why I say, “fear well.” A lot depends on correcting our misplaced fears."

Indeed.  Fear is a deep trigger that generates all sorts of neurochemical transactions which strengthen us as well as weaken us.  I wrote about this before.  Your very next sentence is an example of what I mean:

"How bad do these problems have to get before people decide it’s time to rebel, to turn around, and to change things? Normally, things have to get very bad for most people to seriously object or to do anything about it. Only when a problem comes to a head do people finally wake up."

The thing that makes it hard for them to wake up is the exact same thing which is causing you to sound the alarm.  It's the same process.  Today's alarm becomes tomorrow's anti-consciousness.  After today's solution has been sucked dry of everything it has to offer, it then becomes tomorrow's problem, in need of a new solution.  That is the way of things.  The more tension we create around today's solution, the more our children and grandchildren will have to fight to bring about the next solution.  So, I would offer a question about what we unconsciously create when we create strong intention. 

"Once something is committed to being, a space and time where it is not, also emerges.  You cannot create something without also creating the non-existence of it."  Before you create the next thing, ask yourself what else you are creating alongside.

It is true that zaadz contains all that many of us think will solve the big problems now.  And consequently, it is also true that it contains tomorrow's problems.  Few see that.  It won't hurt anything to keep our eyes open to that.  And we still have to plot forward on the road we're on.  Divine frustration abounds!  And so:

"...more and more people will be inclined to rebel against the madness of it, and to take a path that is much truer to the real values of spirituality: ego transcendence; true love of real God; and true discernment."

Yay and amen!  Eros will continue to stretch the growing tip and invite the transcendence of our current limits.  Your frustration, my friend, is truly shared.  Make no mistake about it.  Clearly, there are many who care about the lame debates and arguments over terms and angels on pin-heads. 

But, if they all leave out of frustration, who will lead the way?  What else are you creating alongside of your place "where the living reflects your intuition of life well lived."  Please be mindful of that.  That is all I ask. 

Rest and be well, my visionary, wonderful friend.  I will miss you.

~Ww